Beginning

I am beginning to rearrange
Pick up the pieces and place them
The puzzle is not looking the same
I thought I knew what
I was trying to create

I am beginning to wonder
Is it all the same
Playing Russian roulette
And always dodging the bullets
Always pushing my luck

I am beginning to challenge
All that I was before
All that started on that dusty floor
How do I overcome it
How to push on through

I am beginning to realize
My life is just a show
Everyone preforms their roles
I am just making by
Trying to saving face

I am beginning to transform
For better or worse
I am not the same
I am on the edge
Of grace or destruction
It's much to early to tell